Wednesday, August 17, 2005

i am stupid...
crying is weak... at least for me it is.... to resort to crying to get what you want is pure weakness of the heart.
urgh... and worse is i was tearing in front of my brother and my friend...
i feel guilty for not going with faith for ocip... but something just told me not to go... this something that is so familiar before... i'm sure faith will get in... as for me, i don't plan to regret anymore since it's a choice i've made is final. why waste the effort....
am i suppose to get philosophical and rant around raving like a insane person?
here are my fears....
of being a target of lesbianism. i can't stand people being too intimate... i may act flirty but tt is only act, nothing else...
at least my sexual orientation was confirmed today.... and what did i lose? my wits...
i feel like giving up....